I miss you so much Ang!!!! / Rhonda (Sister)
Hey lil sister!!! I miss you more than life itself. I used to come to your, and Nicky's site often, now it takes too much out of me... just like going to your graves, I can't do it. I hate to admit it.. I cannot bring myself to this anymore. Sometimes I hate myself for it. I ask myself a million times, "If it were me instead of Nick and Angie, would they continue to visit me?" and I know you would!! You would visit me every day... maybe that is the difference.. I visit you and talk to you in my mind every day.
My neighbor was killed in a car wreck last Sunday, he was 19, we have been there..but you know what? I haven't been to their house one time.. I can't..... the pain is too fresh for me.. I know what they are going through and I don't want to see them as I seen my own parents TWICE, preparing to bury their babies!!! For that I feel like crap....but for my heart and my family, I know Robin knows I care!!! She is also our mail lady at Farm Bureau..that makes it worse for me because now every day when she comes in I will not be able to look her in the face!! But, I will have the same compassion for her that every one has had for our family since you and Nick left us!!! UGHHH!! Death sucks!!!!
Brooklynn is 8 months old today. Angie, you and Nick would just love her.. she is so funny!! Lane is absolutely adorable, sweet,, your typical baby boy, but Brooklynn...she has the cutest personality!! She has 9 teeth, trying her damndest to walk..she crawls..but I call it "Crawlking" she is crawling/walking......and she has the determination of a wrestler on steroids.......I love her.....she has made my life whole again where the holes have formed!!!
Well, we are headed to a BBQ in Lebo.......if only you and Nick could go to!!!!
I love you more than life itself and wish more that you were still here.
Forever in my heart
Always on my mind..
loving you forever...
until the end of time
Your big sister
Rhonda "Nose"
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